Can you imagine my surprise, when after two and a half weeks of being a Student Worker I found myself thinking ‘Have I made a huge mistake?’
Change is a part of life, and yet, it’s a part of life people often confess to hating. As human beings I think we have a natural pre-disposition to want things to stay as they are. Without change less unexpected things will happen and we have less chance of getting hurt (emotionally and physically!)
Having worked for two years as a touring actor / workshop facilitator, leaving it all behind to work for a church could be seen as a bit daunting, but I’ve never been one of the above mentioned people who didn’t like change. When I left school for university I was hugely excited to meet new people and to experience some form of independence for the first time. When my time at university ended, I was sad to leave my friends, but excited for what life as a graduate would bring. And this year, once again I was sad to leave my theatrical connections behind, but equally massively excited for the challenges of being a ‘Student Worker’ at St Michael Le Belfrey.
So how, after two and a half weeks, did I find myself in a situation where I was wishing that things had never changed? Pretty early on I had come to the realisation that I had not the first clue about how to be a Student Worker. This led me to decide that the best course of action would be to put my head down and work as hard as I could and as efficiently as possible. This led to misunderstandings within our team and frustration on my part as my usual method of working was proved very, very fallible.
Sometimes change makes us miss what we left behind. Sometimes it makes us long to return to the way things were. But I think it will always make us stronger. In only two and a half weeks I learnt that all I have to do is speak up about things I don’t understand, or worries that I have, and very quickly they will be sorted, and that any feelings of frustration or worry need not be there in the first place.
Change can be hard. But if you’re in a new place you’re there for a reason! I think I’m in my new place partly to learn how to re-integrate with the normal world after two years of games and silliness. I think I’ve made a good start and now look forward to the challenges that lie ahead!
Blog by Michael Perkins
Michael is on the Student team at St Michael le Belfrey and is passionate about seeing students come to faith in Jesus Christ. By profession he is an actor!