I always remember my mum and dad telling me that patience is a virtue, that's all well and good in theory but when it comes to practice it is really annoying when you have to wait for something that you really want to happen. I don't know about you but that is how I feel a lot of the time. God has been teaching me this over the past few months and it has been hard.
We're told in the bible that God has a perfect plan for us and I believe He does (Eph 2:10). This means that His timing is perfect, but for me if His timing doesn't coincide with my timing then I get very annoyed. I wouldn't call myself a self-centered person in particular but that certainly is! Why do I feel like this?
I like to have control over my life and for things to happen on my terms, like I said earlier, so it must be down to pride. Pride is what paralyses me when there is a big decision in my life to make. I don't want to make the decision that'll be hard as I quite often want to do what I want and not what God wants.
At the moment I'm thinking about a big step in my life that will affect my future and I've had lots of advice about what to do from many people. I'm being pulled in many directions and feel like I have to make a decision now! I need to realise that it doesn't matter when or what people say to me about this, it doesn't really matter what I want to do, all that matters is what God wants as He wants the best for His children.
I want to ask you, what is God saying to you at the moment? Is He making you wait for something or teaching you how to be patient? All I can say, and this is to you as well as me, is that God has a plan for you and to trust in him is the key to it all. Not much to do then...
Blog post by Lawrence
Lawrence is on the student team at St Michael le Belfrey and became a Christian while he was a student in York.