Last week God reminded me of this drama and since then I have been using it to reflect on my own walk with God. For those of you who don’t know what I’m talking about, I suggest you watch it, and even if you do, watch it again.
I find it a powerful drama that reflects so well on my own life, I’ll start off with good intentions of walking with God and then I get distracted, drawn away from his presence and that’s when things undoubtedly go wrong. Suddenly I’ll realise just how far I am away from God, and I turn around and start running back to him.
While I feel there are lots of important thing we could draw on from this drama, it’s the end I’d like to focus on. Once Jesus has stepped in and shaken off the temptations and lies the girl is believing, he shows his love and acceptance of her and then offers her his hand. In the drama she accepts, but I’m wondering how often do we not? I know I’m prone to it, it is in the mess of my life I cry out to God the most, I relay on his strength because I know I don’t have any left of my own. However, so often once the mess in my life disappears so does my intimacy with God. When before I was totally reliant on God, now I have to work on our relationship. I find when I'm in a hard time so often my relationship with God is me being a Job and having a moan at my circumstance, but once I'm in an easier place, I don't turn that into rejoicing, I don't enjoy the joy of being in God’s presence, I simply walk away. I leave Jesus standing there with open palm wanting to show me the delights of my inheritance, a relationship with the Living God. And as I walk away I say “I’m okay, I can do this by myself” which is essentially me saying “I’m an independent woman, I don’t need to depend on anyone, so back off God I don’t need you, I’ve got my own life sorted” and yet I so haven’t.
In a culture where we are called to be independent, called to live our own lives it can be hard to deep down surrender to Jesus, and yet that is the best place for us to be. We need to recognise our own weakness, how completely and utterly frail we are. I’m sure I’m not alone in this, and I don’t have the answer, but here are a couple of suggestions; we need to keep surrendering, so don’t be afraid to do so, we fight a daily battle so don’t be surprised if it needs to be a daily (or more) surrender and each time you surrender ask God to fill you up with more of him, the Holy Spirit. Also, give up something your dependent on, we’re coming into a time of prayer and fasting as a church (the 21 days of fasting starts tomorrow) so why don’t you try and give up that thing you know is drawing you away from God. For example, how many of you wake up and immediately check Facebook? If that is you maybe you need to uninstall the app and instead download a bible app so you can listen to the word of God. Once we recognise those things that we are depending on, that are drawing us away from God, then we can turn our times of weakness, when we reach out for them, into times of worship to him as we lift our eyes to God and make him our dependence instead.
As we enter a new week, let this be our prayer:
Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.
1 Chronicles 16:11
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