Coming back to university in January I felt well and truly ready to give it all up. I seemed to have been in a hole that I definitely couldn't get myself out of. I had been pretty seriously ill for a good two months and felt a total absence of God.
As someone who has always trusted totally in God, and has known that I am loved dearly by the maker of heaven and earth. Feeling so alone, frightened and hopeless was terrifying.
I had started to believe I was useless, unloved, and not worthy to be a child of God. I was at the point that I would do anything rather than have to face people. Even those who were closest to me.
In the first week back at university I nearly got the train home on multiple occasions.
But after going to the House of prayer regularly, the persistence in love of my church family here with me and the grace of God, I feel like myself again.
The weekend away was a real break through, I was surrounded by my Brothers and Sisters in Christ who made me feel safe and loved.
After being prayed for with various people I feel a new freedom that I don't think I've even felt before. I no longer worry about what people think about me because I feel like God has said 'I've called you by name and you are mine'. I no longer underestimate how easy it is to fall into a hole that you can't get out of.
I now give the problems in life to God. In 2 Thessalonians 3:3 it says 'but the Lord is faithful; he will strengthen you and guard you from the evil one'. I really feel this is what God has done for me.
I just want to rejoice in that and move forward in my future with God.
So thank you guys and thank you God for the Love and support you've all shown me.